In fact, you never said what you thought I wanted to hear. Instead, you said what you yourself needed to hear. You said that, which was needed to preserve your illusion, and which prevented you from thinking about how I had ended up where I was at 20 years of age.
Basically, you did not care at all. Because you had one goal only, and that was to show off your power by paying me to use my body as it pleased you. When a drop of blood appeared on the condom, it was not because my period had just come. It was because my body was a machine, one that could not be interrupted by a monthly cycle, so I inserted a sponge into my vagina, when I menstruated. To be able to continue on the sheets. And no, I did not go home after you had finished.
I continued working, telling the next customer exactly the same story that you had heard. You were all so consumed with your own lust that a little menstrual blood did not stop you. When you came with objects, lingerie, costumes or toys, and wanted erotic role-play, my inner machine took over.
I was disgusted with you and your sometimes quite sick fantasies. The same goes for the times when you smiled and said that I looked like a year-old girl.
It did not help that you yourself were 50, 60, 70, or older. When you regularly violated my boundaries by either kissing me, or inserting your fingers into me, or taking off your condom, you did it knowing perfectly well that it was against the rules.
You were testing my ability to say no. And you enjoyed it. When I did not object clearly enough, or when I too often would simply ignore it. And then you used it in a perverted way to show how much power you had and that you could cross my boundaries.
When I finally told you off, and made it clear that I would not have you as a customer again if you could not respect the rules, you insulted me and my role as prostitute. You were condescending, threatening and rude. When you buy sex, it says a lot about you, your humanity, and your sexuality. To me, it is a sign of your weakness, even though you confuse it with a sick sort of power and status. You think you have a right. I mean, the prostitutes are out there anyway, right?
But they are only prostitutes because men like you stand in the way of healthy and respectful relationship between men and women. Prostitutes exist because you and your peers feel that your sexuality requires access to sex whenever it suits you.
Prostitutes exist because you are a misogynist, and because you are more concerned with your own sexual needs than the relationships in which your sexuality could actually flourish. A man hands out cards for a brothel in Perth. When you buy sex, it reveals that you have not found the core within your own sexuality. I feel sorry for you, I really do. And if one is not handy, it is never further away than down the street, where you can pay an unknown woman to be able to empty yourself into a rubber while inside of her.
What a petty and frustrated man you must be. A man unable to create profound and intimate relationships, in which the connection runs deeper than just your ejaculation. A man, who expresses his feelings through his climaxes, who does not have the ability to verbalise them, but prefers to channel them through his genitals to rid himself of them. What a weak masculinity. A truly masculine man would never degrade himself by paying for sex. As far as your humanity goes, I believe in the good in people, also in you.
I know that deep down, you have a conscience. That you have quietly wondered whether what you did was ethically and morally justifiable. I also know that you defend your actions and likely think that you treated me well, were kind, never mean or did not violate my boundaries. But you know what? That is called evading your responsibility. You are not confronting reality. You delude yourself in thinking that the people you buy are not bought.
Not forced into prostitution. Maybe you even think that you did me a favour and gave me a break by talking about the weather, or giving me a little massage before you penetrated me. It did me no favours. All it did was confirm to me that I was not worth more. Well in one town, the law stated that prostitutes who quit the brothel are required to leave town on the next available public transportation out.
In my town, meanwhile, we're required to be back in our house of employment by 5 p. Yep, we have a curfew that applies only to us. If we need to go to the doctor or run errands, we have from 9 to 5 to make it happen. And this is all out of fear that we'll start turning tricks on the corner if left out after dark. Here's an idea -- if they catch people actually doing that, why not punish them then , rather than preemptively punishing everyone in advance?
I had a friend in town, and I went to hang out with her one night. I went back to the brothel the next morning and everything was fine -- the matron knew where I'd been, and I literally just went to the one house and stayed there the whole time.
But the sheriff found out somehow, and he dropped by work just to tell me that if he saw me out after 5 p. Not, "If I ever see you out committing crimes after 5 p.
Like they're afraid I'm a vampire. The reason all these weird little restrictions are allowed is because brothels in Nevada can only exist in counties with less than , people. They are based almost entirely in small towns sometimes small towns outside cities , and since most of these places are so isolated, the sheriffs have the freedom to enforce whatever wacky unwritten rules they want.
And good luck making sense of them. It makes sense that even a town that has legalized brothels would want to regulate how they advertise -- nobody wants a big billboard with titties on it looming outside their church every Sunday morning. But if you're a prostitute, they figure that just the act of walking around and being a woman is, in fact, a form of advertising. And that's where things start to get weird.
First, we are not allowed to go out of the house and entice pedestrians or vehicles into our den of sin. But I've seen girls open the window and holler at truck drivers, and that's apparently fine see, because they did it from within the house. And I can take out the trash topless if I see a truck driver coming, and that's fine, too. As long as we stay on brothel property, everyone's happy ish. But what if I want to walk to the gas station to buy some cigarettes, with my top on, of course?
Suddenly I'm back to living by high school dress code rules everywhere I go, or I risk being arrested. See, because if I'm wearing something too revealing, that's a form of advertising, in their eyes. Keep in mind, it's not just a limitation on going around nude outside, which would be understandable since, you know, those rules apply to everyone. Brothel workers have less freedom to dress how they want than the rest of the women in town -- I have to wear layers, even when I'd like to be able to wear a tank top and a miniskirt.
Women get to dress that way everywhere else, and no one complains. Again, this is Nevada , where 30 percent of the state's economy is based on scantily clad women. But if I dress that way as a law-abiding prostitute?
Well, I might find myself in jail, because why would I dress like that unless I was trying to entice men into having sex? Prostitution is exhausting, and it takes a huge toll on my head and heart. I'm seriously recovering from burnout now. My last trip down there was six months, and I was beyond exhausted by the time it came to an end. You might be thinking that's just a natural consequence of the soul-draining business of sex for money. But the sex itself isn't the hard part at all.
The problem is that brothels never freaking close. So when there's business, there's business, and since most workers are only living there a few months at a time for the express purpose of making as much money as possible, we'd damn well better make the most of every chance for cash that comes our way.
We're on the floor from 2 p. And when my shift is finally over and I try to get some sorely needed sleep? Well, we've got a book, with all our pictures in it that clients can look through.
If they pick you, regardless of what you're doing, you're up unless you want to be in trouble with management. It's absolutely exhausting to be told to get up 20 minutes after passing out and have to immediately switch my headspace from "sleeping" to "doll up and fuck a guy. Also -- I'm always playing a role when I'm on the job. I literally go by a different name and have to take up a different personality when I'm there -- not a single girl there is percent themselves at the brothel.
I came home after six months, and it took weeks for me to respond to my own name the way I respond to my brothel name. I've worked out a system now: It's so good to hear from you! And then there's just the stress that comes with living with your co-workers.
On one hand, we get incredibly close. But we also piss each other off, too. We have communal bathrooms, and you leave expensive shower and bath supplies in there at your own risk which is a big deal -- those pricey lotions are helping you do your job.
We're not pulling knives on each other, but one new girl did get her ass kicked by one of the veterans, after she became the top booker for the month and decided she ran the place. She didn't last long. So, between the harassment from the local cops and barely suppressed disgust from local citizens, who exactly is on our side? Not who you'd think. We have a group of church ladies who show up once a month with presents for us.
I think they come from Salt Lake. It's not all religious stuff, either -- they bring us earrings, jewelry, and bracelets, and every Mother's Day we get flowers and vases. And they do have pamphlets and stuff, but they don't care if you give them a "working" name, real name, or whatever.
They just ask if there's anything you'd like for them to pray for, and when they come back, they remember your name. It's uplifting, especially when you're having a bad week and they show up with cookies... I have a pretty healthy sex life but I've visited a lot of prostitutes over the Later I moved to the US and due to economic factors and the fact that prostitution is illegal (hence the reason I'm posting anonymous) this Your feedback is private. 17 Nov One anonymous escort who has been in a relationship with a former asked the anonymous commenter, flagging a common concern for sex workers. of having their own personal free prostitute and once they are bored of. Personal Experiences · Forums; More By; Robert Evans ·; Anonymous ·; February 01, It's true that I got into legal prostitution out of desperation, but not like, "starving on the street" desperation. While it is illegal to charge money for sex in most states, you can definitely command a fee for your company and all.